Hey spike take a few deep breaths and try to relax. Calm! Calm! there now thats better , it will be o.k. It could be the fact that as you approach 40 you are letting this get to you a little. They don't call it the middle age crazies for nothing. Maybe your looking at yourself and find your not were you thought you would be at 40. Who knows but it is a possibility. I cashed out of a dream gov. job in florida at age 42 and moved to Ms. just to start all over on the bottom. I thought it was the end of the world at the time, now I love being here. Hang in there and remember that more time with the family is also a good thing. btw are you by any chance in any hvac related organization on the coast?