I really appreciate the supportive posts. I guess I am leaning on you guys because I have not behaved well in the past such as when my grandparents died.
I did recently handle the passing of an old friend who died at 81 years old, so I guess I'm getting better at not avoiding these situations as I get older. To me, this is by far my biggest fault in life. That I am so afraid to deal with death I avoid comforting those who are dying is just an atrocious act of self serving preservation to me and I hate being this way.
Again; hearing what you guys have to say and your own experiences really does help.